Since the beginning my “marriage” if you call it that has never been the way it should. I even went through with it even when I knew it wasn’t right. I kept telling myself this is how things go before the happiness comes along. It never came. Since 2017 we’ve been separated yet still involved and nothing ever changes. I keep hoping for this romance that never seems to happen. There is no respect, no communication, no love, there is nothing but kids. I know what I want and that’s never been a problem to get but in the past I’ve been so reluctant to give up on this “marriage” and now I don’t care to. Has your heart ever been stuck like on autopilot it’s no going up or down it’s just stuck in the middle it doesn’t feel much it knows it’s not in love it knows the body and mind isn’t happy it’s just stuck. That’s my heart. Recently my heart has been brought back to life and I don’t know if it’s too soon to tell but the feeling is so overwhelming.Ive always had my guard up and my walls up and for once I just put them down to say feel love, real love, true love. I’ve always wanted someone who respected me and was pleased to have me around because I’ve never felt that. I want to say more but I’m starting to get a little ready eyed over here. Rain check 🖋