let me start by giving you guys a bit of a background.

My name is Kelsey I’m 15 years old and I live in New Jersey. I have a sister named Sydney and two parents my mom and my dad.

I decided to start this journal not because I feel like I have no one to talk to you more because I feel like nobody would understand in a way.

My life is been pretty good I would consider myself pretty lucky I am fortunate enough to live my life in a way that I think is pretty good.

My social life on the other hand is a wreck. I’ve had the same group of friends for about four years now and we’ve obviously gone threw our struggles but they have been my friends for four years and we’re pretty much a solid group. Summer of 2018 really took a toll on me because my finger started to not be the same as it was and we didn’t hang out anymore as much and I really became kind of independent that summer I mean we still hang out and everything but it’s just not as often maybe once a week at most. once field hockey season started I felt so much better because I had gotten to see you know my friends from another town every day and it really lifted my mood and I became closer with Them along with one of my other friends rise she totally switched up friend groups in a way but I mean she still friends with us it’s just different now. This year I realize that it’s not on my friends don’t care about me but they really don’t care about me and away because they Will literally ditch me in seconds if something better comes up which really does hurt. For example just today they asked to go to the mall and then they got invited to a party and didn’t decide to tell me this so I’ve been waiting and then I ask and I go yeah we’re going to a party instead. And that sucks

Moving onto my “romantic “life. The reason why that’s in quarters because it doesn’t exist I have never I boyfriend in my life. But I recently within the past month or two have met a guy and I’ve never met anyone like him. He’s honestly I feel like we’re so alike but in a good way. And he’s just a really good guy nothing really much to say we hang out ourselves sometimes and just I literally can’t he’s the best.

So right now it’s a Saturday night and I’m making this my friends are going to your party I wasn’t invited to but I was supposed to be at the mall with them but I guess that won’t happen I’m supposed to get my nails done tomorrow and hopefully there will be a game on Monday that I can go to you. I plan on spending my night cuddled in bed watching Netflix all alone.